Hubby got me a piano exactly two weeks ago. You can't imagine the joy I felt when I first played my piano. I'm very thankful to him for understanding how much I needed to have it. And he seems to be content with what he has done. Beside, I've just discovered that he has always liked playing piano!! 

Mommy, on the contrary, thinks we are both crazy. She was first so harsh about it. She even laid an embargo on visiting me. She didn’t hold back even after she realized islamically there is no problem in playing piano. Now, after two weeks she's got a little easy on that, however, she doesn’t approve it by all means. She thinks I'm fighting with God, my beliefs and with my family's religious status. That’s what I disagree totally.

 What she says or does might show her worries about me. But I think she is worried about her own religious and social status, too. Since she was the wife of a martyred man and is now a theology teacher, her daughter having or playing piano doesn’t seem to fit with her in some ways. I think she is afraid of what other people might think of her when they see a piano in her daughter's house. She is afraid that people might criticize her for not having brought me up well. Well, I don’t know, may be she is just worried about me, or maybe both of us. Well, even if both of us are her concerns, I don't blame her.

 Personally I don’t care about other people's opinion about me playing piano. Because I know I'm not doing anything wrong neither socially nor islamically, so why I should be afraid or ashamed of people seeing it in my house. I'm not worried about other people's reaction when they see my piano. Everybody will get used to it so soon. Even mama will get used to it. That’s why her attitudes don't disappoint me. She doesn’t hold me back, either. Who knows maybe one day she tells me that she likes to play piano! Though I don’t really see that coming, I think some day soon she will put aside this false non-islamic prejudice against my poor piano. And even if she never approves of it from the bottom of her heart, I hope she at least doesn’t try to discourage me with non-islamical prejudicious comments like playing a piano by a martyred man's daughter is like her fighting with God!

Time will solve it, so let it be.

Confident Narcis,

Sep 17th