it's the day of the Doom

It’s the day of Doom…

I see only insides… devilish and angelic…there is no jewelry, no appearance… suddenly it strikes me that I need a mirror!

I see Lord…He is judging people…one by one…one by one…

"Narcis, it's your turn now", He calls aloud.

I walk timidly towards him…I know what I have done and what I haven't…

"Come closer", He calls.

I do…

He looks into my eyes.

And I'm wondering what he may say…

Heaven or Hell…

-"Where do you think you should go?" He asks.

-"I know what I have done and what I haven't, Lord…"

-"Then walk to Hell"

-"Is it because I neglected my prayers for the worldly occupations?"

-"You think I'm not merciful?"

-"Indeed you are…then is it because of the greatest sin of my life I used to do for some years?? "

-"Didn’t you repent and ask my pardon?"

-"Truly I did… so is it because…"

He interrupts "it's because I don’t see my love in your eyes!"

-"no love in my eyes? But I always loved you, Lord. I asked your help in every difficulty and thanked you for the happiness you gave me. I used to write letters to you and talk to you in my solitude. You were always the kindest to me and I tried to be grateful for that. It was just my way of expressing love and I thought you might like it. I really didn’t know any other way to show you my love and my gratitude. Didn't you like my letters?"

-"I did."

-"Then what is it that you want to send me to Hell? What is it that deprives me of your mercy? What have I done that I don’t deserve to be by your side? Do tell me!"

-"you loved your dreams more than Me. You couldn’t miss them for My love. You never realized that when you were weeping for them, I was waiting for you to ask for my love. You broke my heart when you worked hard only for your worldly dreams. Didn’t you ever dream of me?"

I have nothing to say…I realize my sin…how can I justify it?...a tear rolls down my face and He observes it.

-"Lord, I love you…I go to Hell. But please promise to be with me when I'm suffering. I'm used to call you when I'm suffering. Tell your angels that they don't need to fling me to that free flame of fire. I go myself. Just let me look at you for a while…please…please" I say with pain and tears.

Angels fly away from me at His hint.

 And after awhile the time is over…

Narcis

Feb 13^th